It's been a while...

since I last posted on here. So long, in fact, that it took me twenty minutes to remember my password to get in to the page.:P I guess up until now... everything's been okay. :) Up until now, I repeat.

Have you ever had to stand-by and watch someone you care about crash and burn? It's not pretty or pleasant. That's what I've been doing for the last few weeks. It's not the first time, either. I've discovered, as of yesterday, that I am profoundly sad about it all. I think I'm sad because I know I have to just walk away from it.

I'm drained and exhausted, I had my hands pretty full before this even started. But now...I feel like I could lie down and just sleep for a week. It's horrible to watch someone fall down into a seemingly bottomless pit of mistreated mental illness, addiction and despair and know there is not a God damned thing you can do about it. Even worse is feeling you have to abandon that person to save your own sanity. I'm straddling the fence right now.

So... I think I'll contemplate the state of the universe tonight while listening to some music. Good evening.